It can be scary sometimes, wondering what tomorrow may bring, however think about it, if you knew what tomorrow was going to bring, you may find yourself looking forward to tomorrow even less.
I wanted a perfect ending. Now I’ve learned, the hard way, that some poems don’t rhyme, and some stories don’t have a clear beginning, middle, and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what’s going to happen next. ~ Gilda Radner
In other words, the future isn’t in your hands, it’s in God‘s, so don’t worry about what may or may not happen tomorrow or the next day. Put your faith fully in God, because whatever you need for tomorrow He will provide for you.
Following on from yesterday’s blog when I talked about feeling like an outsider, I thought it might be helpful to give further details of how it feeling like an Outsider makes people feel and act.
So what does it feel like being an Outsider?
Here’s a few of the feelings I know I’ve felt: alone, vulnerable, embarrassed, scared, isolated, frustrated, annoyed, upset.
Some very strong and powerful emotions there. Emotions which together make it very difficult to deal with when you feel like an Outsider. Let me just explain a few of these emotions in further detail:
Alone/vulnerable/isolated - great feeling of isolation and distance from everyone both physically and emotionally
Scared – of making a fool of myself, of being out of my comfort zone : either by standing by myself or if I’m brave enough, approaching someone and either saying nothing or saying something stupid
Frustrated – at myself for putting myself in a situation where I feel like an Outsider again
Annoyed – at myself for not being brave enough to force myself to be part of a group or conversation
Upset – at myself of feeling so alone and putting myself through these feelings again; and upset that others don’t seem to notice me, or notice how alone I’m feeling
So how do people act when they feel like an Outsider?
Again I can only speak for myself, but here are a few thinks I’m aware of: nervous, quiet, introvert, stupid, anxious
Let me explain these a bit more: When I get nervous I get quiet, and when I get quiet I get nervous. I get anxious that when I do speak or go to do something, I do/say something really stupid and make a fool of myself.
Anyone else out there with similar feelings? Anything else you want to add?
When I was younger I used to force myself to be part of things, but I had some bad experiences which I think have taken their toll on me because now I’m far more likely to just not put myself in a situation where I think I’ll feel like an outsider. e.g. As I spoke about yesterday, at my church, where I tend not to stay for coffee fellowship after our morning service or attend our cafe church meetings or any other meetings where our band are not on playing as that would mean I have to find someone to sit beside or talk to.
Maybe I’m just more wary because of my past experiences and shouldn’t that’s the norm. Maybe I just need to be strong, take a big breathe in and go for it…but it’s scary!
Having said that, I know that no matter how terrified or anxious I may be feeling, God is there with me, and He will be More Than Just Enough. I hope you enjoy More Than Just Enoughsung here bySara Luneack:
How much of you does God want you to give Him? How much of your life have you given to Him?
If your answer to both these questions is not “Everything”, please ask yourself why.
There is no doubt that God does want you to give your whole life to Him. He wants all of you. So why have you not given God your all? Are you scared of what he’ll ask you to do? Do you feel you’re not worthy of God’s love? Are you scared of what your family or friends might think?
Whatever your reasons, God can and will help give you the strength and encouragement to do all He wants you to do. Psalm 199:76-77 (NIV) May your unfailing love be my comfort, according to your promise to your servant. Let your compassion come to me that I may live, for your law is my delight.
The following are the words of a beautiful song “All There Is of Me” by Sydney Cox, which I find expresses my desire to give “all there is of me” to God:
All there is of me, Lord, All there is of me. Time and talents, day by day, All I give to Thee.
All there is of me, Lord, All there is of me. On Thine altar here I lay, All there is of me.
For time and for eternity, Take all there is of me.
Are you faced with making a difficult decision? Are you faced with making a decision that could dramatically change your life? Scared you will not make the right decision?
Well you’re not alone – all these situations/feelings are all perfectly normal. I think if we are all honest, we all get a bit scared/worried when we face difficult decisions or face new situations that are unfamiliar to us. But how can we be sure we are making the right decisions? We can only ever be 100% certain when we involve God’s in our decision making. Friends, family and colleagues may all try to give you advice, but ultimately God is the only person who can guide you to the right choice for you.
Talk to God. Listen to what he’s saying to you. Trust his leading.
If you follow God’s directions He will guide you though. He will give you all you need to do whatever it is he has directed you to do. Trust Him.
I Can Trust You (Rebecca St James)
Yes, I know that You have paved a path for me Yes, I know that You see what I do and don’t need But when it comes to the deepest things I have a hard time relinquishing control Letting go
God, it hurts to give You what I must lay down But when I let go, freedom’s found God, it hurts to give You what I’ve held so dear Because of Your love it’s clear I can trust You with this I can trust You with me I can trust You
Lord, I know that You are worthy of my trust For You have shown me time and time again You’re faithful and yet I’m so scared of letting go of this Afraid of what You might do with it How could I forget who You are like this
Me forsaking Heart is breaking I let go of what I’ve held so tight Freedom’s mine now For the taking I move in faith, not by sight Let Your will be done