Archive for July 23, 2011

Are you competitive?

Are you competitive in everything you do?

Yes I’m competitive and yes I’m competitive in all I do!

Why? As I think I’ve told you before in I Want Perfection, I’m a perfectionist, and as a perfectionist, not only do I expect myself to do everything perfectly, I also expect myself to win at everything I do, hence my reason for saying I’m competitive!

So when I don’t win, how do I feel? Disappointed in myself, sometimes annoyed, and usually frustrated at myself.

Once again I think I’m proving that I expect too much of myself, and often put too much pressure on myself to do well, while also tearing myself apart when I don’t do as well as I want or expect.

It gets worse…not only do I expect myself to win all competitions I take part in, if it’s a team game/competition, yes you guessed it, I expect my team to always win!

Fortunately having recognised the fact that I’m a perfectionist and am very competitive, I do try not to show my utter disappointment/annoyance at myself or others when I/we don’t win!

It’s tough being a perfectionist, and it’s just as tough being competitive.

So why do I want to win at all I do?

I was taught as a child to always do my best, and that my best was always good enough…no matter whether I won or lost.

I was taught as a child that no-one should expect to win all the time. Only one person on earth has ever had the right to be the best at what they do and that was Jesus.

Therefore all we humans should expect of ourselves, is to do our best and not get caught-up in whether we win, lose or draw. However we can always strive to be more and more like Jesus.