Archive for August 18, 2012

I was chatting with a friend recently about how when you look back at some situations/circumstances you’ve been through in life, you now wonder, “How on earth did I get through that?“.

We all have times in our lives which challenge us to our limit, and which we find incredibly difficult to cope with at the time, but somehow or other, we do!

For some, these kind of situations arise when they have to deal with the death of a close family member or friend, or when they or a loved one suffers a serious illness.

I’ve had a couple of times in my life, that now I look back on them, I wonder how on earth I got through them. The most recent of these events I’ve talked about a few times in my blog, and that was when I became very ill a few years ago. The other occasion was a number of years ago, in fact 2 months after I got engaged, when my dad took seriously ill. To cut a long story short, hubby and I got engaged in the December and were due to get married the following August, but in the February my Dad took seriously ill. For a while it was touch and go whether he would survive and even if he did, whether he would be able to walk me down the aisle…

I was always a Daddy’s girl when I was growing up, and always into football, tennis and music, just as my Dad was. I think it was this that made it harder for me to comprehend what it would be possibly get married and my Dad not being there…those where very very difficult weeks and months.

As you’ll have gathered if you’ve been reading my blog for a while, my Dad did survive, and he was able to walk me down the aisle when I got married. Yes, Dad was quite slow at the walking and his Father’s speak was very short but I was just so happy he was able to share my wedding day with me after the uncertainty of whether he’d survive.

Looking back at those times when Dad was seriously ill and also more recently when I was very ill for a number of years, I have no idea how I got through those times. When I was ill I was in severe pain constantly yet I managed to keep working, although I do remember I spent a lot of time in the ladies toilets trying to keep myself in one piece and cope with my pain. As I consider my pain levels these days and how difficult I find things now, I find it incredible that I was able to carry on working during that time,as my pain levels now are a fraction of what they used to be and I know how difficult I find life now!

So how did I manage to get through those times?

During those times, particularly my own illness, I didn’t feel at the time that I was “getting through it”, and I certainly felt as if I was totally alone. However in hindsight, I now realise that at no time during either of those occasions or indeed any other time in my life, have I ever been on my own, because God as been firmly by my side, holding my hand and guiding my though those difficult times.

In fact these last few months when things have once again been very difficult due to hubby’s health problems, Dad’s dementia, supporting Mum and my own on-going health issues, I have kept reminding myself that God is with me during all of this, and He is there supporting me, even though at times it may not seem as if he is.

So how did I manage to get through my difficult times? I got through them with God’s help.

So no matter what you’re facing in life, do not think you’re ever on your own, because through it all, God will be with you.