On 6th September, one year ago today, we were awoken before 7am by my mobile phone ringing. When your phone goes before 7am on a Sunday morning, you know there’s a problem, and sure enough, that day was no problem – It was the Prince and Princess of Wales Hospice calling to tell me my Mum had deteriorated and that I should come in. Sadly despite out best efforts, Mum passed away before we got to her.
Well it might be a year since Mum died but it still feels like just yesterday in many ways – Where has this last year gone!
There’s so many things I now wish I’d talked to Mum about, told her or done for her, but it’s too late now. I still find myself thinking I’ll just phone Mum and tell her such and such…and then I stop myself…
There’s so much more I wish I could say about Mum today, but even one year on, it’s still too hard for me to do so. So I simply want to say this, Mum I never told you often enough when you were here how much I loved you, and how much I appreciated all you taught me about life and God.
Mum was a Christian, and was proud have been brought up in the Salvation Army where she served God all her days. This song reminds me of Mum and her strong faith, and I simply pray I too can keep my promise to God, to serve Him all my days.
Bereavement affects us all at some point in our lives and we get through it in different ways; some seem to cope as if nothing has happened, others struggle to cope; some find it easy to take about their loss, others prefer the quietness and reassurance of their own memories. However we cope when someone we love passes away, we are grieving and it’s important to give ourselves time to grieve and not expect life just to carry on as normal for as, as our lives will never be the same again after a loved one dies.
So today, and every day, I remember my Mum, Margaret Jackson Watson Johnson nee Gilchrist (27/9/1931 – 6/9/2015) – I miss you so much, you’re never far from my mind and I will always love you.