Archive for October 1, 2019

Can you remember, exactly where and what you were doing at this time last year?

There’s not a lot of dates and times in my life I can tell you with certainty where and what I was doing at that time, but I know exactly where I was at this time last year – I was in hospital, in ICU (intensive care unit), having had life saving surgery earlier in the day.

From about 7/7.30 am that morning when I was wheeled into pre-theatre and anaesthetised, I actually have no recollection of anything, other than a few weird dreams, until 2 days later! I’m told I was awake and had conversations with the medical staff and my husband later on the day of my surgery and the following days, although as I said I have no recollection of any of this until 2 days after my op.

It’s been a very difficult year physically as it’s taken a lot of very hard work to get me to where I am today in my recovery. The surgery has definitely made a difference to me, as I now feel much better than I have done for a while, but I still have to remember that my body is still recovering from the trauma of the surgery.

Emotionally it’s been odd, as both in the lead up to my op and even the morning of my op, I was quite surprised how calm and at peace I felt. However in the lead up to this first anniversary, it seems to have really hit me the enormity of what I’ve been through. I’m just grateful that God still had plans for me this time last year, and just pray I make the most of this added time He has given me.

In the last few weeks a particular song going through my mind a lot in the last few months – It is well performed by Philippa Hanna. The words of one of the verses in particular important to me

Far be it from me to not believe
Even when my eyes can’t see
And this mountain that’s in front of me
Will be thrown into the midst of the sea

Through it all, through it all
My eyes are on You
Through it all, through it all
It is well