Posts Tagged ‘guardian’

Aunt MaeOn the 3rd of April 2013 at about 6.300am, one year ago today, we received the phone call we’d been expecting, but dreading, it was the hospital to tell us that my Aunt Mae had died just a few minutes earlier.

Well one year on, and I’m still finding it hard to cope with my Aunt Mae and my Dad not being with us anymore. It still seems unbelievable in many ways that in the space of just a few weeks last year Dad and then Aunt Mae died.

In many ways my grief for them took a back seat for a number of months as I tried to help my Mum cope with the lost of her husband and her sister. Mum is coping a little better these days, although just like me, she has her moments!

Bereavement affects us all at some point in our lives and we get through it in different ways; some seem to cope as if nothing has happened, others struggle to cope; some find it easy to talk about their loss, others prefer the quietness and reassurance of their own memories. However we cope when someone we love passes away, we are grieving and it’s important to give ourselves time to grieve and not expect life just to carry on as normal for as, as our lives will never be the same again after a loved one dies.

So today, I remember my Aunt Mae, Mary Waddell Gilchrist (23/10/1922 – 3/4/2013) who passed away one year ago today,  and my Dad, both of whom I miss so very much, you’re both never far from my mind and I will always love you both.


2 Corinthians 4:8-9 (NIV)

We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed.

When we are struggling and everything and everyone seems to be against us, stand firm in God’s love, because He is with you. Always be assured of His love because He is the guardian of your soul.

Yesterday in Promises, I talked about how there is one promise I have made in my life that I know if I keep this one, I will be able to achieve so much more in my life – My promise to serve God all my days.

In order to live our lives for God, we must entrust our whole lives to God. i.e. Let Him be the guardian of our soul.

gods-love3I worship you, God’s only Son,
Who took my sins to the cross
So I could be completely free
To follow where you lead.
Lord you wounds are now my healing,
And I am wholly yours.
You know my name and where I’m going,
Guardian of my soul.
I’ll follow you, God’s only Son,
Along the road to the cross,
No other place can I find grace,
Unfathomed and unflawed.
And as I reach the hill of Calvary
And see your open arms,
I’ll know my name and where I’m going,
Guardian of my soul

Last night I went to play at ny first band practice in nearly year (Bellshill Salvation Army Band). I was a little apprehensive about going, firstly at the thought of taking that first step back through the door again, and secondly as I wasn’t sure whether I’d cope physically with playing.

My fears were unfounded though, as it turned out to be far easier than I’d imagined to take “that first step” and also as physically I survived, albeit with some pain, but not too severe thankfully.

During the practice we played one of my favourite pieces called “His Guardian Care“. The words of one of the melodies from that piece, which incidentally is the trombone quartet (it’s just coincidence honestly!), has stuck with me today:

God is with us all the time,
In the morning when joybells chime,
In the evening when lights are low;
Our God is will us everywhere we go.

Do you believe those words?

I do! I believe if God had not been with me every minute of every day, particularly during these last few years, I would no longer believe in Him. During some of my darkest moments I questions God, wondering why He was letting me go through what I was, but every time I questioned Him, He answered me…sometimes by directing me to a particular song or piece of music, words from a friend or indeed words of comfort from someone I hardly knew!

God has proved to me He is always with me, regardless of whether I’m going through tough times or whether everything is going right for me. God can do the same for you…God is doing the same for you because He is right beside right now, whether you’re aware of Him or not!

I hope you enjoy Michael Olson singing the well known worship song God is With Us