Is it wrong that whenever I’m out of my house, no matter who I’m with or where I am, I can’t wait to get back to the safety of my own home?
Don’t get me wrong, it’s not that I feel physically unsafe when I’m out, but simply that I’m scared that I can’t keep of the facade that emotionally I’m ok.
Again it’s not that I am an emotional wreck the whole time I’m in public, but that it can just take one word or action from someone, or something I think of myself, to overwhelm me with emotion again – and that is something which I really find very scary.
Psalm 3:3-5 (NIV)
But you are a shield around me, O LORD;
you bestow glory on me and lift up my head.To the LORD I cry aloud,
and he answers me from his holy hill.
SelahI lie down and sleep;
I wake again, because the LORD sustains me.
Even during these times of deep emotion, I try to always remember that God is there by my side. He is the one who knows why I’m feeling like this, even though I often don’t know myself!
It kind of all comes back to yesterday’s blog post again, Christ Alone, because:
In Christ alone my hope is found,
He is my light, my strength, my song;
Here’s another version of this wonderful song, this time by the International Staff Band of the Salvation Army:
The Distinct Dot 