As a perfectionist, it took me many years to not beat myself up when I got things wrong. So it is probably not a surprise that I did not find it funny when I failed, and I certainly didn’t like others laughing at me. Unfortunately that was something that happened quite regularly as I was never one of the ‘in-team’ or popular folk, and therefore any chance some other had to laugh at or make fun of me, was usually taken.
I make this sound so bad, but it wasn’t, it was just the way my life was when I was growing up. But as I’ve now got older, and have grown up I really can see why others may laugh at some of the things I say or do, and in fact, why when I’m struggling with something or finding it really difficult, I laugh and make daft silly comments – Basically it’s my coping mechanism. Unfortunately I realise that I may come over as insensitive or rude, because of that, but it is just my way of coping with life, and so far it had helped me survive.
The Distinct Dot 