The Rollercoaster

Today’s been a bit of a rollercoaster for me from good news this morning to the frustrating in the afternoon.

Having been off work sick since the start of this year, I’ve been seeing my GP regularly to get a line to allow me to stay of work. I’ve also attended a number of hospital appointments for a number of tests to try to establish whether my illness needed further hospital treatment. So this morning I was back at my GP to see whether test results were back from the hospital and secondly whether she was happy for me to return to work.

To cut a long story short, no results were back from the hospital however as I was feeling better, my GP was happy for me to return to work on a phased return basis from a week on Monday (14th March). Getting no feedback from the hospital from cardiology is nothing new for us, as my GP has had to “chase things up” with them on countless occasions over the last few years. My GP told me she’d contact the Golden Jubilee Hospital and “chase thing up” again, and would let me know any news.

After my GP appointment I returned home after picking up a few messages, and I was glad I did as about a half hour after I got home my GP phoned me to say she’d been in touch with cardiology and that they were happy that my problems in the last couple of months are nothing sinister or related to my previous problems.

Yay! Not only was I fit enough to return to work soon, but the recent health problems are nothing to worry about. 🙂

So this morning was the high of my rollercoaster, now onto the low of this afternoon…

I’d a follow-up appointment at the hospital where I’d had a number of tests to try to establish the cause of my ongoing pain. But what a waste of time this turned out to be. Last time I saw the doctor there, they told me unless the next test they did showed any problems they wouldn’t see me again…but then after the test my GP was informed they wanted to see me again for further test, so we’d all thought they’d found the potential causes of my ongoing problems…how wrong that was!

I waited, and waited and then half an hour after my alloted appointment time, I was finally called by the doctor. We basically just went over all my history again, he then told me the previous tests hadn’t shown any major issues and that if some of the medication I’m already taking had made no difference, my ongoing pain was not being caused by anything their section could identify! Basically they still thing my ongoing issues are being caused by something relating to my previous cardiological problems…Cardiology say they’re happy all is OK! Meanwhile I’m stuck in the middle with ongoing pain issues.

I hadn’t realised how devastated I was by this news until I left the hospital to drive home and my tears started. I couldn’t even speak to hubby on the phone to let him know how I’d got on I was so upset.

My ongoing pain issues have been going on for a few years now with no-one yet able to identify the cause or find anything that relieves my pain, so I think understandably I feel that another door has been closed. It looks like cardiology is still my only hope to finally get to the bottom of why I’m still getting pain…I feel this could go on for some time yet!

Just to finish off my emotional drive home in the car, a song that has meant a lot to me over the last few years during some of my lowest times, came on my CD in the car…

Casting Crowns singing I’ll Praise You In This Storm