I don’t know about you but sometimes I just want a bit of peace and quiet, with no interruptions from anyone or anything. It doesn’t mean i don’t care about anyone but myself, it’s just an indication that I’ve exhausted my own physical or mental strength.
The very fact I can can recognise when I need that break is a step forward for me as in the past I’d have carried on pushing myself until I was almost at breaking point – until I was no longer able to put on my public face anymore.
Maybe putting on a public facing papers over the cracks and helps us (and others) think we’re ok, even although we’re not. In these days where mental health is talked about more openly than it’s previously been, not putting on our public face may be the best thing we can do for ourselves, as then others will truly see us as we actually rather than the false public face they usually see of us.
Showing my true feelings and emotions publicly with those around me scares the living daylights out of me as I am not someone who likes anyone to see my raw emotional times. Maybe it’s time for me to open up and show that side to others, maybe then others will really understand me.